[Verse 1]
Do you know what it's like to not leave your room or house for two or three years?
Do you know what it's like to be stuck in your bed, rotting as the foundation sinks?
And do you know how it feels to be trying to heal for years and years of your life?
Do you think I'm okay to spend most of my days wondering if I'll ever be fine?
[Verse 2]
I don't want it to end, but I don't want to keep going like this
I don't want to be buried with something to miss
You'll forget me, I'll pop into dust
Distractions, new contractions
To keep you from feeling that feeling that you need to feel
I like to pretend it's not real
Do you know what it's like to spend most of your life
Wishing you were anything else?
[Verse 3]
Do you think I'm okay to live the same day over and over again?
Do you know how it feels to not feel real and then bury that feeling within?
Do you know what it's like to give up but keep living a shell of the person that I was?
Do you know what it means to wipe your fingerprints clean from their life because you know you're not enough?
And do you know how to pry your head from your bed just to not worry your mom?
And you'll do what you can to have a five-year plan
But we know I won't be here that long, and I'll look in the mirror
It's never felt clearer that I'm the worst thing for my health
Do you know what it's like to spend most of your life wishing you were anything else?