Now, all right, haha
You need to do it, put the knife in my back, because at this point that's what it feels in my factual, in my factual life
It feels like a lot of this is a stab in the back, and i can't control it, i can't control it
Oh i can't, oh i can't, oh i can't, oh i can't, oh i can't
Let's slow it down, let's slow it down, and be in the present moment
I always say i wanna do that, but i never actually do it
Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop
I don't know what this is anymore
I don't know, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know
I don't know, i don't know i don't know
Take me out of darkness, take me out of it
I was so close to ending it all
How am i still here?
How am i still here?
I saw a face in my sleep
I also had a dream
It was that nuclear explosion
And, i thought it was real
And i opened my eyes and i was like
I had to put the covers over my head in my bed because i was scared
I want it, help me, help me, help me, help me
Why does it feel like control
Why does it feel like control
Why does it feel like control
All you gotta do is open up and say my dad always thinks he knows me but he doesn't
But i know he loves me
I love you a bit more than you think i do 'cause i've been in your shoes a time or two
I know you want to go but it's your time on this earth now to shine and show
I wish sometimes i could be someone else
I could break myself and reshape myself
But i'm working with what i got and i don't know if i got a shot
But i'm gonna keep trying