Betrayed dissonant hypocrite
Brought to tears though the care is counterfeit
Convulsing and shaking at the mere thought of
The most horrid crime one could commit
Nothing but the best, and better yet
Drag yourself through the mold that is preset
Your heart shouldn’t feel any pain
Were my teachings done in vain?!
The fact is within these walls is a toxin
Burning off my skin, kills my heart, burns my lungs
Because anything lower than perfect is a sin
A flammable disdain that cannot be lit
You know you have no reason to cry
Your room is a lobotomized pigsty
You fail because you don't try
Neurotic ensemble of reasons why
At last, an excuse to be distanced
Circumvent the downward spiral descent to madness
Founded on new principles that make more sense
Untapped beauty in a life so intense
At last, the sun shines over the dirt
The troubled hibiscus can finally grow
But he hasn’t escaped the hurt
Because he is then forced to go back home
To be myself I must hide
To survive I must die
To truly thrive
I must poison myself until I wilt
Damned House of Pesticide
Any imperfection is a weed
A stain, a knot, a tear
Revokes your right to exist here
Damned house of pesticide
Unwanted foliage cannot return
Oh, how I’d love to ignite it and watch it burn
(Damned house of Pesticide)
Within my heart, sparks flying
Feeling all my skin, heals my soul, fuels my lungs
But anything lower than perfect is a sin
The toxin continues through generations
We know all of this is not in vain
Though I can't shake the red appraised stain
We can't win unless we try
Combine and mix the two different lives
Betrayed dissonant hypocrite
Brought to tears because i decided to live
Convulsing and shaking 'cause i did the
Horrid crime of loving him
Nothing but a girl, and that's the end
Never to blossom and be my ideal self
My heart feels nothing but pain
Petals forced closed shut and chained
Trying its absolute best to grow like it should
A hibiscus is forced to suffer in a toxic place
I can't grow like this, I can't even exist
I have to figure out what it means to be me
Damned House of Pesticide
The horrid torture never ends
I scream in pain everyday
Hoping mercy would come my way
Damned house of pesticide
Fighting back to the point of no return
But in the end, I was the one who ended up burned