Every morning when i wake up i just feel like shit
Ask myself why even do this? i don't wanna live
Like, why do i bother? i'm just getting skipped
Moments replay in my head that i cannot forget
(help) am i ever getting better? is this really it?
(please) what am i doing wrong when everybody switched?
My brain's so damaged everything except the pain is gone
Can't think of words like i can barely make a fucking song
I know my limit, safe to say i've been here way too long
Made my mark cuz i'm the one who taught and put 'em on
Told myself i'd never smoke or ever hold a gun
Somehow i made it past my teens and up to 21
Remember when this music helped me and was kinda fun
But i hate the shit i make, i think it's kinda dumb
Don't know how to live i live in repeat every day
Trapped inside a place that i've been trying to escape
Don't know how much i can take
I love to dream but fears of nightmares and of her keep me awake
Sometimes i can't tell if my dreams are ever real or are ever fake
Think i lost my head so long ago forgot i'm not okay