I still have nightmares
Stabbing through my chest
If i begged you to stop
Would you take it as a yes?
Did i matter to you at all?
Was i just a pretty face
That you could stare at in awe?
I'm insecure about my body
So please avert your eyes
You stare me down
I fall right back into my demise
I spiral and remember
The blood seeping out my thighs
Wish i never was your girlfriend
I wish i fucking lied
I wish none of this was true
The scars i have because of you
If you rape me in a couple nights
I won't be confused
Cause i'm terrified of you
I'm terrified of you
So terrified, i'll say no a hundred times
Deny consent and close my thighs
But it'll never be enough for you
Wake up in the hospital
Violated with dilated eyes
I'll ask them what had happened
And then i'd start to cry
They'd say i was assaulted
And i'd beg and ask them why
Can't take this anymore
I'm committing suicide
I'll write a letter to you
Telling you that i wish you the best
As my body rots in hell
And i start to relieve some stress
I wish i never loved you
I wish i never cared
Now i'm hanging in the hallway
My noose tied up to the stairs
I wish none of this was true
The scars i have because of you
If you rape me in a couple nights
I won't be confused
Cause i'm terrified of you
I'm terrified of you
So terrified
I'll say no a hundred times
Deny consent and close my thighs
But it'll never be enough for you