(Cowboy Bebop sample)
"For some reason i didn't feel sad or broken up it just didn't seem real but slowly i realized that it was real that you were gone and little by little i felt something inside of me go numb..."
(hook)
Left out of town
Gone out of state
Didn't have a chose
My thoughts in the way
I don't wanna go, but
I know i can't stay
I hate that i'm feeling this way x2 (yeah)
(verse)
I got in my car and i drove away
I don't feel right i don't feel real
I ask myself if i'm really here; disassociate
Wanna go away just to be alone
Say i need space but you never listen to a word i say
What does it matter if i feel this way like everyday? (Fuck)
You never listen when i speak
Migranes - when i can't sleep
Our fights keep me awake
When i vent you flip the script
Play god when you're a puppet
You don't know the first thing about it
Going through life when you don't wanna live
Live for the people you thought gave a shit
When they really don't, they could care less if u die alone
My last words painted on the ceiling
When the time comes the truth will spill
This was not made the faint of heart
My ex girl was suicidal so its no wonder it didn't work out
Shoot me down, never pick me up
I pull strings more than i cut em
If i were a string i would cut myself
Almost a year clean so fuck that
And fuck you cause you
Said that
You would be here but now you're not
(bridge)
But you're not
(hook)
Left out of town
Gone out of state
Didn't have a chose
My thoughts in the way
I don't wanna go, but
I know i can't stay
I hate that i'm feeling this way x4 (yeah)
(outro)
Jesus christ
Who knew that quarantine would leak into june