[Hook]
I just wanna feel safe
Make my flesh glow
I just wanna run away
Make my flesh go
Every other day
I'm gonna turn to the other side
Wanna run away but wanna be here sometimes
Every other day i wanna die with a smile
Every other day i wanna live with a frown
I'm really tired of living in denial
I really hope im happy when they put me in the ground
I've been having bad thoughts
What if i die young or what if i don't?
Every single way i try to see it
There ain't no direction that i really wanna go
What if i lose all the people that i care for?
Or what if they lose my hope?
What if they lose me first
And i can't try to help when they go down the wrong road?
On the top of the world but i'm sad half of the time
For no reason, what's my zodiac sign?
Wish that i could walk home without hoping i could cry
Im frustrated living like this maybe i'm too kind
You gotta catch strays i just hope that i'm right
I'm keeping my head up because it's almost my time
I'm dissociating all night i'm up until 5
I got a lot to say so i'll keep on fucking writing
In my notes app graveyard my thoughts go to die in
There's no fucking rest i'm just closing my eyelids
Fuck all of these people with no motion they hide it
But my book's always open and i'm always fucking grinding
Clench my jaw through the pain but it's constant
I can't work a job i would die in an office
Steal shit to live yeah fuck what the law is
Cause life is much better for me when i'm jobless
Portable charger i keep in my pocket
Next to the one with my empty ass wallet
Love what i have i'm just being honest
What you can provide i dont even want it
I just want love but get girls who are toxic
Yeah this shit ain't love just some girl that i'm fucking
And can i get more from you baby i want it
She ain't got no time for ava i feel fucking gutted