[Hook]
Your good days are my worst days
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
[Verse 1]
I'm drunk at 4 AM again just trying to survive the night
You somewhere getting worshipped by a new nigga feeling right
I punched a hole in drywall 'cause I couldn't win the fight
The same hands that held you gentle now just looking for a fight
Delete your number again, put it back, delete; I'm not bright
I'm sleeping in the clothes I wore three days, I look a fright
You glowing in somebody's story, God you look alight
I screenshotted that shit and stared at it the whole damn night
I'm telling everybody I'm good, telling everybody right
Meanwhile I'm unraveling alone without a soul in sight
You healed and I'm the wreckage, you flew off, I lost the flight
I'm texting apologies to a number left on read tonight
Therapist said "let her go," yeah b*tch that sounds real trite
I'm swallowing my pride with cheap liquor every night, that's right
[Hook]
Your good days are my worst days
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
[Verse 2]
You thriving and that sh*t alone is driving me insane
I see you happy and it hits me like a f*cking train
I built the house you living in and you erased my name
I loved you past my limits till I wasn't sh*t, it's plain
I'm drinking just to quiet down the hurricane in my brain
You cut me off so clean it's like I never caused you pain
And that's the part that breaks me, that you moved without a strain
I'm screaming at the ceiling while you walking through your lane
You told me I was toxic, maybe that's the truth, it's plain
But toxic things grow desperate when they dying in the rain
I miss you like a sickness, like a wound that won't abstain
I hate you for being happy, I hate me for the blame
I lit our whole world down and now you living in the flame
Rebuilt it for somebody else, she got the whole damn frame
[Hook]
Your good days are my worst days
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
[Outro]
(I ain't even mad
Nah, I'm lying
I'm f*cking devastated...)
Go be happy
God, I wish I meant that