[intro]
Cashmoneyap
[chorus]
I use the mic to rant cause i don't ever fuckin' speak
Bout how i'm feelin' every day and every fuckin' week
Went to my shell and never talk, i'm always on retreat
And i don't like to talk about the things that's tempting me
Out of touch and out of reach
And i know that it's bad
Can't take criticism, i feel like i'm under attack
Cause if you say one thing then i might think another
And yeah, i might smile a lot but it's a cover
[verse 1]
Crying out for help when i get on the mic
Pray that i don't wake up when i sleep at night
And i never understand, i can't read through the lines
About how i should get better, i'm not doin' fine
[verse 2]
Keep my suffering a secret
Wait to walk the deep end
Kill me now i'm pleadin'
Don't wan' see the weekend
Blinded by the facts that are in front of me
I know that i need help, my thoughts are temptin' me
[verse 3]
Cause i don't know where i'll go in a couple years
I don't know if i'll fall off and disappear
I'm just praying that the road ahead will fuckin' clear
If it doesn't, i don't even know if i'll be here
Cause there's the long nights where i sit and i think bout my regret
And there's somedays, i pray i could take back shit i said
I've been fucked up, smoking gas just so i can have numbness
Lay down in my bed cause i can barely function
[bridge]
My lyrics are the truth, i'm gonna need a lie
I know my angels watchin' me, pray for me in the sky
And yes, i'm getting money but i'm not doing al-right
Hate myself and everything about me in the slight-est
[verse 4]
Booking all these sessions just to numb the pain
Even though i walk out and i feel the same
No matter what i do, nothing can ever change
So i keep all this shit pushing, it's a fuckin' shame (woo)
Cause i'm so tired of this
Going out every night, i don't wan' be on your list
I been like this for a minute, i cannot be fixed
My whole mind has been in pieces, sense some fuckin' bliss
[pre-chorus]
Eighteen years is how long i been hidin'
Can't make choices, not good at deciding
Got one thing i'm good at and it's fuckin' lying
So don't worry about me cause i'm just gon' deny it
[chorus]
I use the mic to rant cause i don't ever fuckin' speak
Bout how i'm feelin' every day and every fuckin' week
Went to my shell and never talk, i'm always on retreat
And i don't like to talk about the things that's tempting me
Out of touch and out of reach
And i know that it's bad
Can't take criticism, i feel like i'm under attack
Cause if you say one thing then i might think another
And yeah, i might smile a lot but it's a cover