[vic vega/lennox's monologue]
Whenever i was asleep i could hear the voices when i was a kid, the first time i saw death and all the memories when i was innocent
[intro]
Yeah, yeah what's going on, y'all?
Born different in a lonely man's world na mean
This is for all the people who are struggling in life to everybody who is struggling in life and to a faith up for themselves. this one's for all of y', all, you know what i mean?
To everybody who is witnessing domestic violence, discrimination, jealousy, poverty, gang violence. everybody's going through something in their life, you know what i mean? that's why i made a song. to everybody who's going through the struggle
We're all in this together nah mean?
Yo
[verse 1: vic vega]
Dear lord, i'm losing hope why am i feeling this way?
All these thoughts inside my brain has got me going insane
I'm still feeling pessimistic all the time
Diseases like this has destroyed millions of lives
Sometimes i'm always lacking confidence
This is a lonely man's world, my g. i know it's obvious
This is my path to find some guidance in the future
Looking to myself i'm just another born loser
Struggling to smile and have fun and be free
Inside my brain i'm locked up all i ever wanted was some peace
I'm just an ordinary dude with no guidance
During these hard times i grabbed a pen and started rhyming because i'm always where the sun don't shine
Coming from a troubled upbringing i'm not telling you lies
I've been struggling to hold my own
But in my world i'm just feeling all alone with no happy home
[chorus: vic vega]
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
[verse 2: vic vega]
People don't understand my situation
All i witnessed was jealousy, violence and discrimination
Sitting alone in my room contemplating
Listening to music in my bed hibernating
Drinking cans of sprite watching videos on youtube
The internet was slow as a sloth, signals getting screwed
Watching facebook and instagram stories
Bitches posting ass got my penis feeling horny
Knew i was born in the wrong generation
Having nobody to talk to it's devastating
I got my book of ones a bunch of pens that i can write to
A bunch of maps cds in my shelf and even vinyls
I got a shitty pillow and a mattress protector
The room's feeling colder than the winter and it's winter
There's no progress to build myself a happy home
And i'm still feeling trapped and alone
[chorus: vic vega]
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
[verse 3: vic vega]
Family is not around friends coming then they go in the flash
Sleeping all alone and thinking right back in my past
I want to fly so high i want to fly above depression
Fly above jealousy, violence, even oppression
Fly above racism and family trauma
Depression's building up, why do my days keep getting shorter?
Looking back i wish my whole life was different
Feeling dead inside that's why i need to keep my distance
I grew up in a messed up family and it was harming me
Cut them out my life i got no time for animosity
I was a violent child struggling with autism
Having meltdowns while we were sent into detention
Remembering back when i went to kindergarten
I once met a blonde girl sitting in the garden
Everything changed when i punched her and she cried
I was wrong for doing that i saw there's tears inside of eyes
I'm not proud of what i did i'm not telling lies
I wish that i could go back and tell her i apologize
Exposed to violence saw my parents do the same
Got my mind going insane, knowing i will not see a brighter day
I'm always fighting the war on my own
A lonely man's world and still i do not have a happy home
[chorus: vic vega]
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world
It's hard for me to smile in this lonely world